shrapnel of self

shrapnel of self

bloodies as fragments 

fall and

shatter 

screams of hurt

betrayal echo

replicated 

on my steel hard heart. 

shrapnel

of self-esteem

of self-worth slouch

trodden underneath

accusation

trodden underneath

complaint

my insides outward

as anger

drains my energy

regret oozes taking joy in red tinged drops

bile as remorse odors my nose

bitterness seizes as vomit

sadness spews in short gushes

shrapnel of self

laying

in solitaire

sequestered

impounded

repossessed

nothingness within

nonentity remains

rest now o’ my soul

repose now o’ my spirit

ease and compose

linger inactive

till tomorrow

tolerate now a tranquility wash

accept a composure recommence

tomorrow

aim strive seek struggle once more

for a shrapnel reverse

in anticipation hope

to

exist intact

and in healing live

unabridged once more.